A/n This is yet another Lily/ James song fic. I know I have used this song for a Harry/ Ginny fic. But it also fit Lily and James. This is my last story for a bit. I have a HUGE biology paper due on February 21. So I will not be on at all. The song is things I’ll never say by Avril Lavigne. R/r Lily Evans stood in front of the mirror in her room checking her outfit. She did this every time she went to hogwarts. She was not the most popular girl at school for no reason. She loved to be perfect. She was not bad looking. She could have every guy at hogwarts if she wanted. Much like her best friend Andromeda (Andie) Black. Lily heard her mom calling “Lily we are leaving now!!!” Lily grabbed her purse and ran out the door. The Evans family arrived at kings cross at 10:45. Lily kissed her mom, dad, and sister Petunia who pushed her away yelling “Get away, you sicko!!!” Lily shrugged and ran on to platform nine and three quarters. Lily loved traveling to school. Especially by the train. Then she saw him watching her. He smiled at her. She looked away blushing. She tried not to jump up and down. I'm tuggin' at my hair I'm pullin' at my clothes I'm tryin' to keep my cool I know it shows I'm staring at my feet My cheeks are turning red I'm searching for the words inside my head I'm feeling nervous Tryin' to be so perfect 'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it Yeah... If I could say what I want to say I'd say I want to blow you--away Be with you every night Am I squeezing you too tight? If I could say what I want to see I want to see you go down--on one knee Marry me today Guess I'm wishing my life away With these things I'll never say Lily was in love with James Potter. She just had never told him. Mostly because he like her could have any of the opposite sex if he wanted. She also did not want her heart broken by him. You see James dated one girl after another. One week he was dating one girl, the next another. Lily hated this about him. She would not be treated this way. That was heart less. He walked up to her. “So my, Lily whats on your mind?” She snared at him “What do you care?” Then ran on the train. James looked sadly after her “But I do care .” He whispered after her. It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time What use is it to you what's on my mind? If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere So why can't I just tell you that I care? 'Cause I'm feeling nervous Tryin' to be so perfect 'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it Yeah... If I could say what I wanna say I'd say I want to blow you--away Be with you every night Am I squeezing you too tight? If I could say what I wanna see I want to see you go down--on one knee Marry me today Guess I'm wishing my life away With these things I'll never say Lily had been made head girl for her seventh year. She walked into the prefects compartment to give out orders. She did so. All the prefects left. She headed off to find Andie. She was about half way through the train when she was yanked into a compartment. “What the he...” She was interrupted by someone kissing her. She pulled back as soon as she could. James was looking down at her. Lily screamed at him “What the hell is wrong with you?!?!” He looked coldly at her. “Oh nothing Lily and you?” “N...nothing? Nothing?!?! T...hen then why the hell did you do that?” He was outraged “Oh, let me think maybe because I love you?!?!” She stared up at him. “You...you know nothing about love you git. Otherwise you would treat your girlfriends better.” With that she burst into tears. (What is)What's wrong with my tongue? These words keep slipping away I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say 'Cause I'm feeling nervous Trying to be so perfect 'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it Yeah... James sat down and put Lily on the seat beside him. He put her head in his lap as he spoke to her. “Love, I act that way because for six years I could not forget you. Then suddenly Sirius pointed out to me that you could not be forgotten. He liked you at one point himself. Now you are more like a sister to him. I date that way because I was trying to get over you. That’s impossible though. So will you go out with me? Just one date I swear.” I guess I'm wishing my life away With these things I'll never say If I could say what I want to say I'd say I want to blow you--away Be with you every night Am I squeezing you too tight? If I could say what I want to see I want to see you go down--on one knee Marry me today Guess I'm wishing my life away...... These things I'll never say She smiled up at him. “Yes I will, James”. He beamed down at her and kissed her yet again. She sat up and sighed “I Love You James.” He got up and kissed her one last time before letting her leave. “I love you too, Lil’s” She was half way down the corridor and blew him a kiss before running to find Andie. She and her Boyfriend Ted were in the last compartment. They both hugged her when she entered. “So Lily, how was your summer?” Andie asked “ Well....” End